Diary of an Arthritic 1

=> D.o.A1 – Growing Pains

Hello,
First I feel the need to say... I do not share this to "re-open old wounds", make anyone feel bad/ sorry for me, or any other negatives. This is simply a blog for the inspiration of others.

My inspirations for this blog:

> My continual efforts to help/ support those who may be in need of inspirations in many ways.

> & http://www.rebellesociety.com/2017/04/24/christiedelvesco-heal/

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Physical Difficulties

My childhood was rough. When I was 13 months old, doctors discovered that I had JRA (Junior Rheumatoid Arthritis - Stills), so I was in and out of hospitals since it was discovered. I was told that at the age of 2 years my leg was broken over a simple clumsy fall, and I think this was my first stay in a hospital overnight that I vaguely remember. I am not sure if I was kept for observations when I was younger though. After that I was in and out for check ups that involved a minimum of my doctor, and his assistant or a learning student. I remember some times I felt like a lab experiment, as the table I was lying on was completely surrounded by medical staff/ students. Hospital check ups continued into my teen years, until finally I didn't have to go so much as my arthritis seemed to be in remission around 15 years old.

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Surgeries

In my adult life, I have now seen an "acetabulor osteotemy" (I call it a hip extension with large metal screws), both hips replaced (also metal), and a shin plate (also metal) from a broken leg. All this happened in an 11 year span, and with all these metal parts I often wish they were bionic – why not be like the "Bionic Woman"?

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Social Difficulties

I had challenges with walking "normal" due to my JRA, so naturally I was avoided/ made fun of by others in grade school. I knew this was to be "the norm" for my life at school, but I didn't realize it was also going on at home in different ways. When my sister started to take on an "I'm better than you" attitude that she felt free to say often/ treat me badly; while my mom just stood by and watched, as if a school kid watching a fight on the playground. My mom seemed to show favourtism towards my younger sister for many years, and I got blamed for things I didn't even know about/ do – "normal" for most families some may say... but I think it could have been due to my mom's possible feeling of burden/ hassle from raising me with such an issue/ problem, and my younger sister's attitudes did not help. My mom never seemed to support me much outside my JRA.

I never really realized that my mom and sister were like this still until a more recent visit. Sad but true. So I prefer to keep my distance, as I see these as "toxic" behaviours. I rarely talk to either of them now, and honestly it doesn't bother me. What does bother me is that they still choose to behave in such ways towards me. I am forgiving not forgetting, and I hope it stops before any of us die.

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Change is good!

Out of all this, came my change of perspective as I decided to ignore the rudenesses/ ignorances of others, and teach myself how to find my inner strength to become the survivor I needed to be. I think I was about 13 years old then, because by 15 years old I started trying to move out. I didn't succeed until 2 years later, and I am thankful that I have never had to live there again.

And despite the fact that these events can be depressing to think about, I find positivity and comfort in knowing that I have gotten past them – at least for now.

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HOW DID I DO IT?

1. Seeing the truth of situations, and realizing when there are "toxic" behaviours/ relationships. Then distancing myself from them – mentally & physically. Mentally is harder.
2. No longer looking for/ needing comfort, support, validation, or closure.
3. Self-Awareness & Developments - Doing "my own thing(s)", and finding the values of me.
4. Continual Self-Interests based studies for life and career – ongoing life-long learner.
5. Reaching out to my community supports (friends included).
6. Remaining POSITIVE through it all – not always easy, but I try.
7. Sharing all this for those who may need some inspiration.

If you have read this far down, thank you.

Feel free to leave a comment anywhere I may share this, and to share this with anyone whom may need it.

Until next time...

Take Care & Safe Travels!

Sincerely,

Chris E. S./ C.E.S. (042717635PMishC.E.S.)

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Crafting Our Characters (COC) – Introduction

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Hello out there,

Today brings a couple of different twists to my blogs, and I am unsure how many/ often it may happen in the future.

First: In my usual attempt to keep blogs short/ on one screen length, this blog is now a common themed series.

Example: Basics Intro. (this blog) covers an 'edu-idea' (042214330PMishC.E.S.) of mine only.

Next subject section (Basics1): Background Information

& Second: I hope you appreciate this educational introduction!

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Subject: Character Creation/ Design

When we think about character creation/ design, we usually think of video game avatars/ cartoon characters we grew up with on Saturday mornings. This blog is about getting in touch with ourselves as people, and how we can create/ design our own personalities/ character traits. How is this related to creating/ designing video game avatars/ characters? Read on my friends... (^&^)

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My 'Edu-Idea':

This is a blog about creating a character for your own amusement/ educational purposes.

I describe it this way, because it can be used both ways either separately or together/ simultaneously. I know this from my own experiences as I have discovered a couple of tricks to getting some undesirable/ difficult/ procrastination ridden tasks done. Examples:

1) If I think of the task getting done by an "alter-ego", I can envision myself doing it easier.

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2) My past research of both our Canadian history/ heritage, as well as characters' (already in our existence) abilities, limits, and character traits has lead to learning what is desirable and undesirable - to both myself, and others.

For example:

In regards to Nationality/ Heritage:

Thinking of our Nationality/ heritage does not always stir the desired memories or feelings, but it can help us learn why we have the character traits we do. Some are heavily influenced by our belief systems, and some of those stem from our Nationality/ heritage. What we choose to practice and what we have grown up practicing, may be two different lists to us.

Here we can go further, with...

A "Le Challenge":
Look up some of your Nationality's history, and compare it with how we behave. & Don't forget any religious influence possibilities! Do you see anything similar or related? Is there any negatives we wish to change to positives?

A good thing to keep in mind... What's generally popular/ well known, may not be "your thing".

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3) Personality growth - This is another positive growth opportunity!

Used as an Educational Tool ('edu-tool' (042214332PMishC.E.S.)): As we see the undesirables, we also see improvement possibilities within them for us and all "Human-kind". With this identification of what we wish to change into, we can start observing ourselves for where/ when those changes are needed. If we take that further during observational times; we can "catching ourselves" in these negative acts, and attempt to change them into positive behavior. Let's write a list(s), so we can start the transformation!

TIPS & TRICKS

A great way to remind ourselves of what changes we want, is to write a list of course. There are a few ways to keep us looking at the list that may help. Keep in mind that what works for one, may not work as well or at all for another. For example: Keeping that list with us often helps a lot, but may be not as helpful as "post-it" notes in places we look often, or texts to ourselves. There are many ways of leaving ourselves notes, the trick is in causing ourselves to look at them.

In Brief:

Seeing myself doing it, is half the problem. Research can further our observations/ decisions; as we learn what is & is not desirable, what we do & do not want to behave like, and that we can observe ourselves for behaviour improvement opportunities. This is how we can create/ design our personalities, and positive growth experiences in life. (042214418PMishC.E.S.)

& BONUS:

This is how we can also improve us as a member of our species/ "Human-kind". If more of us practiced this more often, our world would be a lot better off.

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Tying it Together:
When we create/ design our video game avatars/ characters, this relates in the same manner. We can use the above outcome, to add what we want however we wish.

How would you want your avatar/ character to behave like?

What would be your version, of the "ultimate you"?

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Watch for Basics1 coming soon! (^&^)

(link will be added once complete)

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Until next time...
Take care & Safe travels!
Trish the Dish/ C.E.S. (*@^@*)

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